It had been a few weeks since I had gone out with the mission to open air preach and to share the truth of the gospel with dying souls, and my heart was yearning to go again to proclaim Christ, to labor with the brethren, and to preach as a dying woman to dying men and women.
In part, I almost felt as if I shouldn’t go, as if I should just give up, but I said no, I’m not going to give up I will press on and go tonight. I texted everyone I could think of to see if anyone was going downtown. No one was going. Nicole said she might go but was with her sister. I called James and he knew of no one going. I prayed to the Lord, Lord don’t let me be anxious, provide for me laborers to go with tonight. I don’t know who Lord, but you can provide, and if you don’t Lord, I will rest in your sovereignty and do what you would have me to do.
So I drove to Fattys, even though I knew of no one who would go with me downtown that night. No one besides Nicole had texted me to say they were going or not, but I went anyway.
When I walked into Fattys Jay J was sitting there and I went and sat next to him and told him that I prayed the Lord would send people to Fattys to go with me downtown and that the Lord had answered my prayers because he was there, just waiting for me! I don’t think he knew at all that I was coming so he wasn’t waiting for me, but I saw it as God’s providence, and it was.
So I was able to fellowship with Jay J and then I saw David Garza was coming in the door, and I said to Jay J, “See the Lord is answering my prayers!” Well actually he just came to buy a burger lol, but we got to fellowship together and it was good.
I was thinking of going downtown alone but Jay J wouldn’t allow it. Time went by and I trusted the Lord. “Lord let me be patient and anxious for nothing. I am here, you know my heart, you know my desire to go to the Alamo and preach tonight. You know it Lord, do as You will.”
About an hour and a half went by and I got a text from Daniel saying he was at the Alamo and wanted to witness and would wait for me there until I got there. :)
Jay J had decided that he would go with me as well, and so after two hours of waiting upon the Lord He gave me my hearts desire, brethren, laborers, to go with me so that I would not go alone.
I was excited and when we got to the Alamo we saw there were many people there.
We prayed, and it was such a blessing to hear the prayers of my brothers, I was so encouraged! We talked for a time, and we shared with a few people and then sat at the Alamo. There was hardly anyone at the Alamo; I expressed my desire to preach, but I wanted there to be more people.
Jay J did not feel liberty and Daniel wanted to fellowship and I desired to preach, and in my mind I was like, “Lord what do we do? How can our hearts be united as one body?” We were thinking of leaving, but I saw a few more people coming and thought while we are here I might as well preach before we go. Might as well since that was the very reason I desired to come!
There were probably 20 people, as well as a group of about 20 kids at the Alamo, so I went up to preach but realized my great need for Gods help and went back to Daniel and Jay J to ask for prayer. The Lord really filled them with the words to pray and I knew the Lord was with us and that this was His will, and because I knew the Lord was in this and that it was His will my confidence to stand up and proclaim the gospel was strengthened. When we opened our eyes from praying there were twice as many people as there were before we closed our eyes to pray. We were like wow, where did they all come from?! And more are coming!
Filled with excitement and desire to preach for God’s glory, I went back up to preach and could see that Daniel and Jay J were praying and I felt comfort knowing they were fighting with me, that together we were the body of Christ, united in Spirit, intent on one purpose, and it pleased my heart. I prayed to the Lord, “Lord I can’t do this, Lord I can’t do this, Lord I’m not able, Lord I can’t make my voice sustain, Lord I can’t do anything. Lord you can do this, Lord you can do this, Lord you are able, Lord you can make my voice sustain, Lord You can do everything. Help me.” Then from behind came a rushing wind and I opened my mouth to speak, that the wind might carry my voice.
Most of what happened is a blur to me. I had written down what I wanted to preach and for the most part I stuck to what was written and preached the gospel as loudly as I could without losing my voice. More people were coming and I saw people watching, listening, filming me, or talking to others about what was going on. Then there came a beautiful blessing from the Lord. A group of what must have been about eighty young catholic school boys around the ages of 8-10 passed by me on their way to the Alamo. They watched me and mocked as they passed by. Jay J told me that the Catholic Priest had been talking to the officers there at the Alamo to try to get them to make me stop preaching, but they would do nothing. After the boys had walked by the Alamo a group of about forty of them came back and sat down on the ground in front of me to listen and watch me preach. Many laughed and mocked and shouted out amens. I told them about their sin and that God has seen everything they’ve done when they thought no one was looking, that God knows their thoughts and every bad thing they’ve done. I told them that they were in danger because any day they could die and face God and be judged for all the things they have ever done. I told them their works and their righteousness wasn’t good enough and that only Christ’s sacrifice on the cross could pay for their sins. I told them that God is perfect, holy, and just. I told them they must repent and turn from their selfishness and sin and live for God and follow Christ. I told them that if they did not repent and did not believe in Christ that they would go to hell for eternity. I told them that there was only heaven or hell and to get to heaven you had to be perfect, and only what Christ did on the cross was enough. I saw them there and I wanted to pour out all the truth I could think to give to them. I told them I loved them and wanted them to know the truth that they might save their soul, that they might be reconciled with God. Some of their faces became more serious, it seemed they really were listening, though some were mocking it and spurning God in their hearts.
I observed that because of the group of boys that had sat down to listen, others had been drawn to also listen. It was such a blessing, and the Lord enabled me to say all that I desired to share with them. When I stepped down they all applauded as if it had been a show and flocked over to me and Jay J.
Fortunately, Jay J was there to share with a group of about twenty-five of the boys to talk to them further about the things that I had said and explain to them, and I prayed for him as he shared. I had not realized the boys were Catholic, but Jay J did so he was able to talk to them specifically about that, and how works do not save, and how a person is saved by faith in Jesus Christ. He talked to them about the law and that God has a law, a standard, and that if you fail to keep one area you are guilty of breaking it all. He told them that they all had broken Gods law and only Christ was perfect and able to keep it. Only Christ was able to save them because they were guilty. The boys asked him questions and he explained for quite some time until their school leaders called them away from us. We gave the boys some illbehonest cards and I tried to give them some rap cds but their teachers would not allow it. Afterwards we found Daniel sharing the gospel with a girl that had sat next to him during the time Jay J was talking to the boys.
A couple came up to us afterward and told us that the seed had been planted in all those hearts today and that one day the Lord might water and use those seeds. They encouraged us to keep on, and they said they were so encouraged to see others proclaiming the truth.
We left rejoicing in the Lord and glorying in what He had done for us. Jay J was glad that he came and saw why the Lord had brought him to talk to those boys. It was so perfect, the way the Lord worked out everything. I'm so thankful to the Lord that He provided brethren to go with me. Thank you Jay J and Daniel for going with me, for where two or three are gathered in Christ's name He is among us in a special way!! It seemed perfect having one watch and one pray as one preached, united and working together. It was beautiful! I praise the Lord because it was all because of His blessing upon us.
The Lord is teaching me to walk by faith and not by sight. Even when things seem impossible we can count on the Lord to provide! And there is no reason to be anxious because the Lord has the whole world in His hands, and He showed me that :) Yesturday, the Lord opened His hands and blessed us. Brethren, don't stop proclaiming the gospel! Don't stop preaching it loudly! Don't stop sharing in whatever way the Lord has gifted you! Go! And make disciples! :) The Lord will bless it!
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